The Story Behind the Song-The reason why I decided to post “Story Behind the Song” for each song that I write and publish.
“K’Mille. Testimony and Musical Performance.
Venue: Jesus Book and Gift” NJ
Photo Credit: Steve Weinberg
INTRODUCTION
Behind every song that I write, there is a story. There is a journey of laughter, but mostly tears. There is a journey of realization and humbling when I am knocked off my pride. There were many bumps along the way. The road of life is sometimes, or should I say most often times, unpredictable. There are unexpected events, whether joyful or tragic, thought provoking or sometimes even forgotten, until another event connected, triggers those memories and I re-live that experience over again. Good or bad.
Still in all, I realize, it has been for the better. I was made for the fire. It is purifying. Cleansing. In my foolish youth and over the years of hapless carelessness, in the biggest upsets of my life, I’ve learned wisdom. In all my decisions. Now I understand that Wisdom can never be learned in a book or taught in a classroom surrounded by four walls. The wisdom I learned was on that bumpy, ever winding road of life. But, now with the wisdom I have learned, and yet staying humble to keep learning and growing to obtain greater wisdom and growth in “Character, I found my gift. I can share with others my life experience. I desire for you to know that there is Hope. Starting right where you are at. Through a song, through a poem or through a literary book. Being human, we connect with others experiences. Compassion is compelling us forward to comfort others. Love must be first seeded in our heart to even drive this force. Coming to Christ, only now, I can truly understand this.
Many times in youth I bottled up my feelings. I couldn’t find the words to express my pain. I felt like I was the only one. My hopelessness. My confusion. I found the only way to express my feelings was in poetry. Yes, this is where I started. Then, I started hearing melodies in my head with these words. So I transitioned my writing into lyrics. I began writing songs. I would sing to myself. I found this comforting. The Lord pressed it on my heart to take up journaling. Then like a wave, all my feelings poured forth. I told God exactly how I was feeling, even arguing with him. I cringe just thinking back how I poured out endless arguments. I can’t only imagine Him sitting on His throne “Baring” or “putting up with” my reckless banter. I found out only later, how patient He really is with us and that He gladly listened with great concern and quietly waited for me to finish talking, so He can finally, get a word in edgewise.
I documented my dreams. I documented my experiences. I even documented my prayers to God. As I was stumbling along in life, I started reading my bible a little, then more often, then diligently. I found out through my journaling, when reading back through them over the years, how selfish and self seeking I truly was. I then came sincerely to God in prayer and asked Him where was I missing it? I had not stopped to let Him talk. I heard Him say, “Be still.” It was hard to be still in my mind at the time. I had so many rushing thoughts. I had to learn to sit still and wait on Him. He called my name, and I said “Here I am Lord. Speak.” My life has never been the same. I started taking His correction. I stopped repeated mistakes I had been making, which had me falling into the enemies traps every time when the strongholds in my thinking were destroyed. Through dedicated bible reading, letting the Holy Spirit have His way and continued renewing of the mind, changed everything in my life, even my writing. I found in my journaling I was praising Him for everything He has done for me. I also stared writing down His plans He said He had for me. Plans through my songs. To tell of His faithfulness. To show His glory.
Even looking back over old journals, I remembered prayers I prayed to Him. Amazingly, He answered those very prayers. It was in His timing. He changed my life. I continue to write my songs, this time to give witness to Him. He is faithful. My music is a testimony of His faithfulness.
The Lord told me to share these songs with the world. How He freed me, He can do the same for others.
I pray you enjoy this site. Journey through it. Be blessed an encouraged by it. And if it moves you, share it with others.
Sincere,
A child of God.
John 3:16
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